St. Augustine's Seminary

This isn't really from my diary as this occurred before I started recording my experiences in my diary. In 1981 I attended St. Augustine's Seminary in Toronto. When I was there I started sensing the presence of the devil, very strong, several times in me. I started to think I was going mad. I didn't know what was happening. I wasn't able to connect the devil with my going mad but I know now that that is what was happening.

Two or three times it happened that I felt like I was being taken up into God's presence in the presence of the angels but I never reached God's throne. At least one time it was during Mass in the chapel.

It also occurred a couple times in the chapel that everyone there, mostly seminarians, were like saints in heaven. They all knew what was happening but I didn't but I was beginning to understand.

Something else happened that lasted at least a couple of months. Everything turned a indescribable beauty, things outside if me but also in my thoughts. It was a beauty that I am not able to put into words. I recalled that it had also occurred in my childhood. I thought that it was a normal thing but i realize now that it was not. Recently I have been thinking it could have been an angel but I did not see any images.

July 6, 1997

On this day I saw clouds in the shape of many figures but I am not sure of the significance of them. I believe many were warnings and prophecies of things to come. In subsequent years we had the Kosovo War, 1998-1999, the Iraq War, 2003-2011 and the second Congo War, 1998-2003.

On that day clouds were in the shape of cute little puppies, a man with a long nose, a cartoon of a camel, a puppet dragon with fire coming out of its mouth. The figures were so unusual and indescribable. There was an angelic bird which became gargoyleish, another grotesque image, and an alien. I had been reading about the Mars probe. The grotesque images became peaceful in me afterwards. The was a cartoon little girl with a bow tie on her head which was somewhat ugly too.

There was a wretched old man with a hat, there was the face of a man like someone I knew with white hair and a beard, there was a cloud in the shape of the Tasmsnian devil cartoon. There were images of the devil's tail with the arrow shape at the end. Later clouds were in the shape of creatures, animals and people including a rhino. There was an image of a decrepit old man that looked like Kazoo from the Flintstones. There was an elephant with a sailor's hat, and a man blowing a small trumpet. There was a creature whose mouth was like a grotesque fish's mouth, a winged horse, a cartoon donkey or horse like the horse on Hee Haw, there was the mouth of a cartoon baby like Sweepea on Popeye.

There was an image of a cartoon like Dudley-do-Right including his hat, there was a female lion and a person or creature holding a baby person or creature like he wanted to kill it.

Clouds were in the shape of a little dinosaur like Dino in the Flintstones, there was a little bucking horse, a medieval figure, a man holding a baby up in front of him, the baby seemed to be happy and rolling in his arms.

There was a cute little puppy, heads of giraffes, a person on a horse who seemed to be hugging his horse and another person behind him, then another face emerged from that. There was an image of a man with a white beard, a sailor I think, his chin protruded and rounded. He seemed to be angry.

Other clouds were in the shape of a fox, a wolf man like face lying back like his head on a pillow as if dead or beginning to revive, he was sucking something into his mouth, there was Popeye, two ugly gargoyle creatures, rams or deer, a lizard like creature with its mouth open and vicious, a dinosaur like face, an ugly creature wuth a mane, really vicious, there were sea horses and other faces. I would stare in one area and many faces began to form. There was the mouth of n ugly fish, then the whole fish appeared especially the tail. There was much more. The ugliness is unheard of, that cannot be described.

A little later clouds were in the shape od a cat with its mouth open, really vicious or wild. There was an image of a saint like an apostle or Old Testament prophet. There was a bird like creature, someone who had caught a bird and had it in his hand, an animal with someone on top of or pinching his nose like he had been made fun of. There was an ugly old creature with long ears looking at someone in front of him like he wanted to strangle him, a helicopter as a plane went by and a cloud changing into the face of different four legged animals.

This really happened and I think you can see that it is very difficult to interpret.

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